jiwa remaja.

Today, i lead a happy life i might say.
for the past few days i've been doing some research about myself.
a very deep thought about my own self.
how i want to know about me so much so that i could personally think about others or i may say some special people in my life right now.
i have discovered few weaknesses that i refuse to throw away from my life.
they are still here with me.they are the ones who make me who i am today, who make me feel unique.
However, i do feel that i need to abandone them sumwhere.gosh i hate them.
They make me feel weak.People would think i'm weak.

i'd always feel that i'm the strongest person in the world(although i know i'm not).But yeah just to make me calm myself better,i need to say that to myself so that i can appear strong and patient to my sibs and my other loved ones.But sumtimes, i failed.Even now or maybe in the future, i may fail.Loved ones, i'm not strong.Don't assume i'm strong when i'm not.I really need you.Sumtimes i behave like a child so that i get your attention.pathetic,i know.Saya perempuan hatinya lembut.Walau tersenyum, jiwa di dalam berdarah.sorry guys terjiwang:)

i miss home.that's all.


today, i lead a happy life i might say.Believe me.i'm happy.

nawaitu.

Antara niat dan manis bicara, satukan di dalam satu denyutan.
Di mana jiwamu pasti bahagia kembali bersemi insani…..

Lafazlah setulus hati nurani, bukakan maksud tersimpan di hati.
Biarpun pedih menyiksa naluri nawaitu tuntutan batin suci

Usahlah engkau selindungkan bayangmu, renungi asal kejadian dirimu.
Berjalan tunduk bukan erti kau kalah,tebarkanlah serata jiwa.

Usahlah engkau persalahkan kakimu,andainya rebah di bumimu sendiri
Mungkinkah ada kesilapan semalam, lafazkan lah sejujur hati.

Ketelusan insan sejati mencerminkan budi pekerti,kesungguhan menyingkap magfir,kebenaran diri yang suci.

Hanya jiwa tulus mengerti, kemanisan nawaitu hati.
Ketenangan dlm mencari keredhaan dari mu Tuhan ku

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Amira bermaksud 'puteri' atau 'ketua'.
Tapi apakah ciri-ciri seorang ketua atau puteri itu ada dalam diri saya?
Saya cuma perlu satu ciri ini saja.

Saya butuh ketegasan.Ketegasan dalam menyuarakan sesuatu yang saya tidak suka.
Buntu saya fikir.Perlukah saya mengambil kira perasaan mereka?

Bagaimana mereka boleh lantang menyuarakan sesuatu tanpa mengambil kira perasaan saya?

Apa mungkin diam saya ini bermaksud saya patuh?
Diam saya boleh diperjudikan untuk apa sahaja?
Tidakkah mereka tahu tentang perasaan orang lain?

Bukankah di saat umur mereka meningkat dewasa mereka boleh menilai perasaan dan hati budi seseorang itu?
Apa guna pertambahan umur jika minda masih seperti kanak-kanak?
Hellow ada kanak-kanak yang lagi matang tau?
Dalam diri sendiri semua boleh.
Nak marah-marah,nak merajuk,nak 'rebel',tapi semua tu terus hilang bila mata bertemu.haishhh mana pergi kekuatan?


di saat kaki mundar-mandir,
mata menerawang pada dunia,
hati berbisik perlu.

one fine day.

"Maka nikmat Tuhan yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?"[55:13]

Nikmat melihat. Nikmat mendengar. Nikmat merasa. Nikmat berjalan. Nikmat kesihatan. Nikmat masa. Nikmat ukhuwwah. Nikmat pasangan (yang halal). Nikmat kasih sayang. Nikmat keluarga. Nikmat rezeki berupa harta. Nikmat amanah berupa pekerjaan. Nikmat akal berupa keupayaan untuk berfikir. Nikmat hati berbentuk kefahaman. Nikmat! nikmat! nikmat! nikmat!. Semuanya nikmat dari Allah swt. Tak terhingga untuk saya menghuraikan semuanya di sini.


Sejujurnya diri saya tidak mempunyai latar belakang berbahasa Arab apatah lagi, pendidikan agama yang luas.Tapi saya amat tertarik dengan Surah Ar-Rahman yang dahulunya bukan menjadi pilihan hati untuk ditafsir.MasyaAllah.Apabila dibaca,terasa seperti saya bertanya kepada diri sendiri tentang nikmat apa yang saya dustakan?
31 kali saya bertanya sudah cukup untuk membuat saya terkedu tentang diri sendiri.

Jadi,masa cuti yang terluang ini banyak saya ambil untuk memuhasabahkan diri kembali.Sesungguhnya memang banyak masa saya ambil untuk berfikir tentang diri sendiri.Seronok mungkin apabila dapat melihat kelemahan pada masa lalu diatasi dan menjadi sumber kekuatan saya sekarang.Tetapi saya rasa banyak yang perlu saya perbaiki dalam segenap perkara.Emosi terutamanya.

Jadi yang mana satu yang kita dustakan?

Memang kita tidak berhak membandingkan diri kita dengan orang lain, tidak berhak membandingkan nikmat yang kita ada dengan orang lain, tidak berhak membandingkan apa yang kita ada dan orang lain tak ada, atau apa yang orang lain ada dan kita tak ada. Itu namanya kita tidak mensyukuri nikmat yang Allah beri khas untuk kita saja, dan untuk orang lain tu, itu nikmat yang Allah beri khas untuk dia. Buat apa nak dibandingkan? Kalau nak dihitung, memang tak akan pernah cukup.

“…Barangsiapa bertaqwa kepada Allah s.w.t nescaya Dia akan membukakan jalan keluar baginya, dan Dia memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya. Dan barang siapa bertawakal kepada Allah , nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan-Nya. Sungguh, Allah s.w.t telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu.” [65:2-3]

“…katakanlah, “Cukuplah Allah bagiku; tidak ada tuhan selain Dia. Hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakal, dan Dia adalah Tuhan yang memiliki ‘Arsy (singgahsana) yang agung.” [9:129]

Kekadang peringatan itu datang tanpa diminta, dan selalunya ia datang tepat pada masa yang sesuai.Terima kasih yang namanya itu sahabat :).Sampaikan tangga rumah pun boleh jadi tempat kita memberi peringatan. Itulah hebatnya aturan Allah . Begitu juga hebat Allah s.w.t mengatur perjalanan hidup kita masing-masing. Dalam kita sedar atau tidak, Allah s.w.t mengatur setiap perjalanan hidup kita sesuai mengikut yang Dia kehendaki. Yang membezakannya ialah reaksi kita kepada setiap sesuatu perkara itu. InsyaAllah , jika kita bersyukur, Allah akan tambahkan lagi nikmat-Nya (surah Ibrahim, ayat 7). Tapi sejauh mana cara kita menunjukkan kita bersyukur? Itu terpulang kepada kita semua untuk memikirkannya.

p/s: Andai aku terlalai dengan nikmat dunia atau terlupa oleh bisikan nafsu yang datang menyapa, tolong ingatkan duhai hati, bahawa dunia ini adalah perhiasan semata, yang penuh dengan kesusahan dan pengorbanan, kerana mahar untuk ke syurga itu sangat mahal harganya. Dan sungguh, aku memilih agama yang ada padanya untuk bersamanya. Semoga Allah memberkati pilihanku.

"Sesungguhnya bekal di dunia ialah dengan meninggalkannya dan kaya didalamnya ialah dengan tidak memilikinya."


yang masih berusaha memperbaiki kekurangan diri,peribadi dan akhlak.

muhasabah diri anda.

"I'm so tired"
"Tired of what?"

"Of all these people judging me."
"Who judged you?"

"Like that woman, every time I sit with her, she tells me to wear
hijab."
"Oh, hijab and music! The mother of all topics!"

"Yeah! I listen to music without hijab.haha!"
"Maybe she was just giving you advice."

"I don't need her advice. I know my religion. Can't she mind her own business?"
"Maybe you misunderstood. She was just being nice."

"Keeping out of my business, that would be nice..."
"But it's her duty to encourage you to do good."

"Trust me. That was no encouragement. And what do you mean 'good' ?"
"Well, wearing hijab, that would be a good thing to do."

"Says who?"
"It's in the Qur'an, isn't it?"

"Yes. She did quote me something."
"She said Surah Nur, and other places of the Qur'an."

"Yes, but it's not a big sin anyway. Helping people and praying is more important."
"True. But big things start with small things."

"That's a good point, but what you wear is not important. What's important is to have a good healthy heart."
"What you wear is not important?"

"That's what I said."
"Then why do you spend an hour every morning fixing up?"

"What do you mean?"
"You spend money on cosmetics, not to mention all the time you spend on fixing your hair and low-carb dieting."

"So?"
"So, your appearance IS important."

"No. I said wearing hijab is not an important thing in religion."
"If it's not an important thing in religion, why is it mentioned in the Holy Qur'an?"

"You know I can't follow all that's in Qur'an."
"You mean God tells you something to do, you disobey and then it's OK?"

"Yes. God is forgiving."
"God is forgiving to those who repent and do not repeat their
mistakes."

"Says who?"
"Says the same book that tells you to cover."

"But I don't like hijab, it limits my freedom."
"But the lotions, lipsticks, mascara and other cosmetics set you free?!
What's your definition of freedom anyway?"

"Freedom is in doing whatever you like to do."
"No. Freedom is in doing the right thing, not in doing whatever we wish to do."

"Look! I've seen so many people who don't wear hijab and are nice people, and so many who wear hijab and are bad people."
"So what? There are people who are nice to you but are alcoholic. Should we all be alcoholics? You made a stupid point."

"I don't want to be an extremist or a fanatic. I'm OK the way I am without hijab."
"Then you are a secular fanatic. An extremist in disobeying God."

"You don't get it, if I wear hijab, who would marry me?!"
"So all these people with hijab never get married?!"

"Okay! What if I get married and my husband doesn't l i ke it? And wants me to remove it?"
"What if your husband wants you to go out with him on a bank robbery?!"

"That's irrelevant, bank robbery is a crime."
"Disobeying your Creator is not a crime?"

"But then who would hire me?"
"A company that respects people for who they are."

"Not after 9-11"
"Yes. After 9-11. Don't you know about Hanan who just got into med school? And the other one, what was her name, the girl who always wore a white hijab.ummm."

"Yasmeen?"
"Yes. Yasmeen. She just finished her MBA and is now interning for GE."

"Why do you reduce religion to a piece of cloth anyway?"
"Why do you reduce womanhood to high heals and lipstick colors?"

"You didn't answer my question."
"In fact, I did. Hijab is not just a piece of cloth. It is obeying God in a difficult environment. It is courage, faith in action, and true womanhood. But your short sleeves, tight pants."

"That's called 'fashion', you live in a cave or something? First
of all, hijab was founded by men who wanted to control women."
"Really? I did not know men could control women by hijab."

"Yes. That's what it is."
"What about the women who fight their husbands to wear hijab? And women in France who are forced to remove their hijab by men? What do you say about that?"

"Well, that's different."
"What difference? The woman who asked you to wear hijab.she was a woman, right?"

"Right, but."
"But fashions that are designed and promoted by male-dominated corporations, set you free? Men have no control on exposing women and using them as a commodity?! Give me a break!"

"Wait, let me finish, I was saying."
"Saying what? You think that men control women by hijab?"

"Yes."
"Specifically how?"

"By telling women how and what to wear, dummy!"
"Doesn't TV, magazines and movies tell you what t o wear, and how to be 'attractive'?"

"Of course, it's fashion."
"Isn't that control? Pressuring you to wear what they want you to wear?"

Silence
"Not just controlling you, but also controlling the market."

"What do you mean?"
"I mean, you are told to look skinny and anorexic like that woman on the cover of the magazine, by men who design those magazines and sell those products."

"I don't get it. What does hijab have to do with products."
"It has everything to do with that. Don't you see? Hijab is a threat to consumerism, women who spend billions of dollars to look skinny and live by standards of fashion designed by men.and then here is Islam, saying trash all that nonsense and focus on your soul, not on your looks, and do not worry what men think of your looks."

"Like I don't have to buy hijab? Isn't hijab a product?"
"Yes, it is. It is a product that sets you free from male-dominated consumer ism ."

"Stop lecturing me! I WILL NOT WEAR HIJAB! It is awkward, outdated, and totally not suitable for this society ... Moreover, I am only 20 and too young to wear hijab!"
"Fine. Say that to your Lord, when you face Him on Judgment Day."

"Fine."
"Fine."

Silence
"Shut up and I don't want to hear more about hijab, niqab, schmijab
Punjab !"

Silence.

She stared at the mirror, tired of arguing with herself all this time. Successful enough, she managed to shut the voices in her head, with her own opinions triumphant in victory on the matter, and a final modern decision accepted by the society, rejected by the Faith:

Yes to curls or blowed dried hair, no to hijab!!!

Astaghfirullah.

May Allah guide us all, keep us steadfast on this Deen and save us from the whispers of the 'syaitan'. Let us be more committed to our Deen. Ameen.


sharing is caring.i care that's why i share.

i've learned mine,what about you?

These stories are shared by a Muslim friend, Shaki. I was telling him about what my Tokwan(grandpa) teaches me in life and he said that he has something to share and surprisingly,they have a lot in common.So there you go.Read and reflect.

1 - Most Important Lesson

During my second month of nursing school, our professor gave us a pop quiz.I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions, until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say 'Hello." I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

2 - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at 11:30 PM, an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.
Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, an expensive; giant gift was delivered to his home. A special note was attached. It read: "Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away. God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."
Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him. "How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. "Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled his hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it. "Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient. "Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied." The little boy again counted his coins. "I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies - You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson - The Obstacle in Our Path

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would move the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the king for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way. Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the king indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand. Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving when it counts

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare and serious disease.
Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister. I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying,
"Yes, I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheeks. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded.
He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away?" Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her. You see, after all, understanding and attitude are everything.


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Hazrat Abdullah bin Abbas (R.A.) reported that the Prophet s.a.w said that encouraging good, prohibiting evil, lifting the burden of the weak person and removing an offensive thing from a path are all acceptable prayers to Allah. (IBN MAJAH)

MashaAllah, that shows how easy for you to show your respect and love to Allah s.w.t.Sometimes, we tend to think that to get the 'pahala', we should do something big.Something that gives bigger impact on one's life.But as for me, i believe in one of the Malay old sayings that goes'sedikit-sedikit lama-lama jadi bukit'.I know it's a bit cliche but that is what i hold when i'm in the UK.Be it assignments,laundry, or 'collecting'coins. There are some which turn to a success but some need bigger effort and want.So the same goes to 'pahala',maybe i dont have the opportunity to do bigger jihad but i hope my thought and 'doa' count.InsyaAllah.

p/s: I got 5pounds yesterday while i was working.It really made my day.I entered each room with a smile and greeted everybody with'Merry Christmas'.It's been a long time since i have this kind of feeling.I felt like my heart grows so big as i smiled'.It feels like when you are appreciated because of your work from a stranger and not anyone that you know for a period of time. Anyway, it's not the normal tips where i just go into a room and look for it.I regret that i don't even get to know him a little bit more.I don't even know his name.May God blesses you and your wife.

Goodbye Kesayangans Cohort 4.

Tidak kurang 1hour and 45 minutes dari sekarang,the seniors will be leaving for good.
Most of the Cohort 4 students, i may say sangat3 sedih including me. Although we did have a farewell party but i don't think it's enough untuk membalas apa yang dorg dah buat untuk Cohort 4.

Taktau kenapa,Marjonian sangat macam family.Cohort 3 dah more towards our guardian.When we were in IPBA,takde pun nak ada feelings macam nih. I admit, i didn't even know much about the seniors especially seniors yang dekat Marjon.Tapi bila dah dekat sini,haihh terasa macam ada big brothers and sisters.

To Kak Nad,Kak Syu and Mira,kita memang group usrah paling best!!.Thank you so much atas segala ilmu dan nasihat.Mira akan cuba perbaiki mana yang belum sempurna dalam hidup Mira.Honestly,banyak yang Mira belajar dalam group usrah ni.Walaupun kadang-kadang ada time Mira tak dapat hadir,deep down inside rasa sangat menyesal terlepas segala ilmu dan pesanan daripada seniors.

To all seniors,cakap thank you banyak2 kali pun tak dapat membalas apa yang korang dah buat untuk kitaorg.I wish you all success and happiness bila di IPBA.
We'll be missing you.I'll be missing you!Oh sedih sedih.

p/s:Lepas ni kita jadi senior pulak kan?boleh buli adik2 ke?huhu

oh kenapa tiba-tiba...

Aku rindu mereka!

Ni mesti sebab semalam makan nasi dengan Tirah.Lepas tu masing-masing cakap pasal adik beradik sendiri.Lepas tu aku terbawak-bawak dalam mimpi.
Nak cerita sikit pasal dorang yang disayangi ni.



Azalia Abd Rahman.
* She's hardworking.You always find her with a book in hand.
* Shopaholic.Biasalah girls.what do you expect.They always think that there's nothing in their wardrobe.A reason so that they need to buy new ones.
* She's soft in the inside.Menangis sebab duit most of the times.haha
* Always a listener to me.Maybe because both of us are close.beza pun just one year.So we share most of the things together.Even the bed sometimes...
* She's my intelligent sister.Yeah as i said she's hardworking of course she's the intelligent one.hehe
* She's stubborn sometimes.
* Clumsy:p..skarang dah ok kot.
* Dia suka gelak dan bercakap.She's the talkative among us.
* She is a very strong person.That is why she always be my shoulder to cry on.
* Very determined in doing something,especially when it comes to something that she loves.

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Asyran Abd Rahman
* The twisted one.Percakapannya menguji minda dan kesabaran.
* Sangat matang in his way of thinking.
* Sangat degil and he likes to do things according to his way.Maybe because he's the youngest,tapi sekarang dia dah 'bertenang' sikit.
* He's shy in expressing his feeling towards his beautiful sisters.But i realize that when we're apart,he can be really sweet.sooo sweet.
* He's a person with visions in his life.He knows what he wants walaupun mendapat tentangan from his family.
* Basically, he's a person with a personality that i can't describe.He likes to bottle up feelings but at a certain extent, dia ada juga share with mom and us.


Kak Yang tahu Kak Yang kakak yang garang.Sangat-sangat garang.Tapi Kak Yang minta maaf.Jwa muda masa tu.Semua pun nak marah.Tapi most of all,Kak Yang marah untuk kebaikan juga.Supaya Kak Chik dengan Asyran jadi orang yang lebih baik dari Kak Yang,lebih pandai dan lebih berjaya dunia dan akhirat.Kak Yang bangga ada Azalia dan Asyran sebagai adik-adik Kak Yang.

memang ada hikmah.

assignment dah habis..
ho yeah~
oopss alhamdulilah..

anyway, semalam kami ke Wales..
the night before,i slept quite early because i wanted to wake up early for my assignment.
Waking up at 3 making me feel so relaxed while doing our primary department assignment.
rasa tenang je walaupun stress jugak sebelum tuh sebab otak macam buntu.
tapi alhamdulilah ada peneman di kala aku kebuntuan dan kesunyian.
harap teman itu akan sentiasa ada buat memberi semangat.hehe

So,aku tak tdo sampai pagi.lepas mandi and siap2,me and Tirah walked out of the house without realizing that i actually left my phone.itupun teringat masa atas bas.Tapi sebelum tu,mungkin excited atau takde apa2 perasaan pun, aku berjalan macam biasa tapi taktau macam mana boleh jatuh..terlentang ok.tapi alhamdulilah takde orang yang nampak except Tirah.hehe aku tak malu pun.tapi sakit la.aku bangun terus check raket aku.Takut jugak patah ke ape.raket kesayangan tu..:)
Nasib baik takde pape.Tapi aku pening.masuk umah Tiku.kaki rasa sakit,tengok2 dah luka sikit.tapi seluar aku tak koyak.pelik2...hebat jugak seluar Malaysia nih.

Pagi semalam jalan pergi ke bas control jugak sebab jalan sangat2 licin.Umpama kau jalan atas minyak.sebab tu saya jatuh dengan aksi yang agak menarik.Tapi maintain la pape pun.Menurut Syaz, most of our classmates jatuh.haha tapi ada je yang jatuh tapi taknak mengaku.hahaha

Naik bas tersedar phone takde sebab lepas mencari hanya terjumpa earphone saje.sadis memang sadis.Penat transfer lagu masuk dalam phone tapi lupa pulak nak bawak.Dalam hati teringat si dia yang akan merindui aku nanti.haihh

Game di Glamorgan University.Hebat jugak dorg tu.Maybe dorg pelik tengok kitaorg semua bertudung tapi kitaorg buat biasa je.Main pun macam biasa.Alhamdulilah kami seri dengan dorang..best2:)

p/s:semua gambar pada Cik Zati.Akan diupdate nanti.off for discussion

happy Eid-ul-Adha

Alhamdulilah dah siap satu assignment.

yesterday was the Eid-ul-Adha.
we were not celebrating as i think most of us were struggling on our ICT assignment.
Nak rindu kat rumah pun tak sempat but i think they miss me though.haha
I almost forgot about Eid yesterday until my mum texted me about it.

'Apa khabar kak?love u.'

'ok jer.blablablabla..'

'ok.esok raya kak.takecare.'

'ouh raya?haha ok2..kak lupa.blablabla'

as usual, i always do most of the talking or should i say texting?yela.my mum is simply a straight forward person.she just said whatever that she wants and that's it.
simple kan?if it's me,i like to crap first and then only i ask what i want to ask.memang complicated.

Anyway, to create a raya mood, i baked a cake.Oh Mira and cake memang tak boleh dipisahkan dah sekarang..hehe
That one is the most simplest thing i can do(due to my assignments).

Plus, tomorrow i'm going to Wales again for our last game this year.And the next day we have to hand in our Primary Department assignment.I'm doing it now.:p

Anyway,i was laughing while looking at the list of players that are going tomorrow.Semua Malaysian okey.Bangga betul eventhough only 6 of us going.Doakan ok.


I don't know how the wish for Eid-ul-Adha sounds like.But still, salah silap harap dimaafkan okey.



p/s:raya haji aku best tahun ni sebab aku makan roti yang dah expired 10hari lepas.
sedap la jugak tapi lepas tu korang kena ulang alik masuk toilet la.Ada berani ka?
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Buatmu yang sedang menjalankan tugas sebagai khalifah Allah , teruskan perjuanganmu… doaku sentiasa mengiringi setiap langkahmu, setiap desah nafasmu,

setiap detik indahnya berkongsi ilmu, setiap ikhlas pengorbananmu…


biar dipisah oleh lautan, dipisah oleh keadaan, dipisah oleh masa, dipisah oleh kesibukan,

diamku insyaAllah berisi doa, diamku insyaAllah berkhalwat denganNya,

diamku insyaAllah memuhasabah diri, diamku insyaAllah melatih hati…

penuhilah rindu ini dengan cintaNYA yang memenuhi hati ini begitu saja…

Cukuplah Allah s.w.t menjadi saksi atas setiap ibadah yang tercatat…

Cukuplah hanya Allah s.w.t menjadi saksi…

i'm thinking of being an activist one day.

What are dreams? Your visions that you see when you are sleeping? Is that IT? NO! Dreams are things which could be brought into reality, but needs a lot of effort. People don't usually have dreams come true, because they think what they need for life is not a dream to come true, but the reality that you get to live on this messy world with a job that you don't even think you like..

Dreams...Dreaming about having a new house, new handbag, new pets and a pair of new shoes...Dreaming about being a pilot, being a sniper, being the mistress of a house as grand as a great castle...

Dreaming...Dreaming...About a lot of things which might not come true at all...

Stupid me, even dreaming about a friend that would never leave me alone at all, at anytime when I need him he'll be there.. It seems to me now that except God, there's no such friend at all... Even a catmight not be with me when I need a friend to talk to..

The truth is, I dream about everything nearly everyday. I dream about how to say "thank you" or "I'm sorry" to somebody about something they don't care about at all, am I silly? I was told that I don't even have a heart to pity or to feel sorry for those who are dying, or in need.(oh mr, u must have not known me well enough)

However, my friend, I have to tell you that I care. I care about the people around me, their minds, their emotions, their feelings, their thoughts... It's just that I don't know how to say it, or to express myself in the right way.

That's why I write, a lot, regardless in Malay or English. I write when I don't know how to espress something, or when I don't know what to do with a certain situation. For example, I was thinking about how to say "I'm sorry" to someone that I have hurt so deeply, I started to gaze at nowhere, and daydream, and don't know what to do. I just pick up my pen and I started writing, not to him, but about him. I wrote "Please don't hate me,having a friend is not an easy thing for me, especially a good one. In fact I think I like you very much." That was never told to him, because I don't know how to say it.

Writing gives me a greater space to express myself, as I am certainly not a good speaker...

Dreaming provides me with a greater extent of freedom...

(This was written last night after i was stuck while doing an essay title'I have A Dream')

Courage to dream.courage to achieve those dreams.

oH,i love you Mr.Obama.

nasib baik imanku masih kuat.

Semalam lepas balik from Barbican,pening-pening kejap,aku buat keputusan nak tengok Twilight.tau la korang semua dah tengok kan?Aku tak sempat okeh.
So aku tengok la cerita yang mengambil masa aku selama 114minit tu.
Sebenarnya tak sabar juga tunggu pontianak handsome tu keluar.

Bila dah keluar tu, lemah jugak lutut aku.Nasib baik aku duduk atas katil.Kalau aku tengok movie sambil berdiri mesti aku dah jatuh tetiba(tebiat apa tengok movie berdiri babe).
Aku rasa ramai orang yang terpikat dekat si Edward ni mungkin sebab pandangan mata dia kan?huyoo mendebarkan jantung ok.Tapi bila tengok lama-lama sikit aku macam boleh control la.

Tapi ok lah best couple dengan pontianak ni.Siap gi dating atas pokok tuh.Boyfriend kau boleh buat ke?Takde masanya Mira.nak ajak keluar pun nanti mesti susah.last-last kedai mamak jugak.Tapi takde lah aku nak berharap pakwe aku ni jadi pontianak sebab nak gi dating atas pokok kan?Apa-apa pun aku bersyukur.Kalau tidak asyik kena join minum darah jer.Bosan.

Anyway,aku recommendkan cerita ni untuk korang(ayat yang bosan sebab korang semua dah tengok kan?)So tengokla lagi.

P/s:Semalam dapat gambar photoshoot.bahagia.Thanks Dienka.how thoughtful you are!siap print okeh.